as an apology of sorts.
I figured you'd care to see it and possibly decode it.
Guilt and self disgust is whats brought upon me. You're clever. I could never make a fool of you. I've hurt you and I am forever apologetic. The loudest I can be sincere, in silence. Drowning in my own remorse. Under surface in silence. Perfect human, emotion; projection. Trust me, the vomiting feeling is mutual and I am stuck with this burden as long as it burns you. I'm at a loss for words when it comes to describing the extremes you bring our conversations too. Could you believe I'm at a loss of breath when I dream of you? Capable of fearing a being I've never met and I've measured your strength and taken into deep consideration that you worry and you think. Perhaps this queen is caring of her subordinates and not a tyrant ruler after all? Could it be safe to question the depths of this river that we both are considering to cross? We've only met at the edge of a dock to glimpse just where the waters would take us together hand in hand, and soon in the future we may meet together and explore an unknown land. Summer has ended, before these waters freeze I must learn you. I want to study you and pick apart your mind. A dissection to learn how I can please you. This goes beyond our hierarchy, this is a human interest in a human soul. Daydreaming of our future and nightmaring it will never happen. I can learn myself with you, give me my strength that you see within me. Showing me my beauty I've never known, this is why I'm scared to lose you.